Thirsty?

Have you ever been so thirsty that you ache for water? And I am talking like squeeze a cactus thirsty. As I have gone through, kind of, complacent periods of my walk with God I found myself praying for a THIRST for Him. Oh man, does God answer this one. I am always so amazed at how each time I pray for guidance or an answer or anything from God... I doubt and question, and feel empty only to see Him answer my prayer in His time. In this case the Lord brought me to a dry place where I was spiritually coughing for His living water. Have you ever been in a place where you just try and read any devotional book, turn on KLOVE, turn on Third Day because you just NEED something? You are so anxiously looking for water, something to give you relief, something to refresh you from the dry, dirty,and frustrating day you are having. Today I pray that EVERYDAY I am spiritually thirsty, exhausted, and miserable until I ask God to give me His shower of blessings.
And just a little tid bit God has been showing me lately. I have been watching Joyce Meyer speak in the mornings before work and one bit of truth that keeps being said is that we should come BOLDLY to God bc guess what, if we BELIEVE He will supply our needs... HE WILL. And, I know for me, I ask, "where does that boldness come from?" I mean, HOW? me? bold? believe? faith? ummmm YEA! OH! yea we HAVE CHRIST IN US! Wow, to really grasp that concept and hold onto its truth is a Life Changer. I can come boldly because last time I checked the Holy Spirit was not one to question or hesitate. Today, I pray for a BOLD walk with Christ. WATER Bottle in hand :)

Purposeless?

I was reading a book this weekend and it said that people, especially women, can live with almost any tragedy except purposelessness. Hmmm. How true is that? In our life, if we can't see that ultimate light at the end of our proverbial tunnel then we become overwhelmed with all of the little things that seemingly went unnoticed when we had purpose. Even in the hick-ups of our day to day, if there is purpose behind it, if we can see the silver lining or even better have a firm grip on the foundation of purpose in our lives... those hick-ups... are just that.
Well that is a fun, not overwhelming, easy breazy topic to dwell on, during my Saturday. :) So thus begins my deep thought into not neccessarily what my purpose is, but what PURPOSE is. What purpose does our life carry? and why is this core truth of human nature something so impactful in our lives?
So, lets take one giant leap forward, what makes the purpose or the search to find our purpose from a Christian different from the rest of the world? ... Everything. I know for me it has always been about finding that dream, connecting the dots of my life, and imagining the journey of life. But this little nugget of truth entered my heart this weekend... Our sole purpose, my sole purpose is NOT any path I will take, it is not what man I marry, it is not what I dream my life to be in 20 years, it is to know the Lord. (eyes look up and to the right to just take a second to see how this truth just shot a hole in my universe). yep. In every moment, in every step I am called to call out to my Savior and just come to Him. How can you next step forward not be exactly where is it supposed to be if you are laying it at the foot of the cross?
What a challenge. What a wonderful admiration to wake up to tomorrow. What a relief it is to know that I was created to seek Him, and know Him, so that more can know Him. Thats it. Its not about the pavement under my feet, it about the barefoot journey of my heart to know my Father.

The Sunrise of a New day...

I am so excited to start this blog. I hope I can keep this going :) Right out of college and starting this crazy journey I have so many moments I want to hold onto and this might just be the way. This time and blog will a way for me to put words to my sweet surrender of every step i take with my savior. Ever been a place in your life, that your convinced is the beginning/midde (at best) of something great? Well, thats where I am. Everyday of my life carries so many smiles, memories, struggles, lessons, stories, and I just cant wait to see what happens next.

• Right now, I am living in South Carolina. I work as an office manager at a communications company and needless to say this is NOT where i thought i would be right out of college. I have always had this underlining theme or calling to stay out of the regular 9-5 job. I just ache to work with people, to make each day count, and to do something each week that I know the Lord has cleared a path for.


• This past year has been a "oh my goodness what do you REALLY want me to do with my life God" kind of year. haha. Leaving college was not the transistion i expected. A ministry opportunity did not pan out... the job search... whoa... and um all my friends are in different states... hmmm this is different. So thus began a huge search of why the Lord has me here and how do I prepare my heart for what He has planned for me.


• you know, when you are trying to put your thoughts together on who you are and who your creator wants you to be... wow can that be overwhelming. Where to start? what are your passions? you know, one time i was sitting next to a woman on a plane, and she suggested you right down the top THIRTY things of your heart every month for 6 months. Without looking back each month, after the 6th, compare the lists. Your list themes are the topics of passions of your heart... run with it. Those could be goals, people, dreams, tasks. Hmmmm. maybe she has something there. Does the Lord allow our deepest desires to dwell inside of us, and can he use tasks like the one suggested so that we can recognize the passion of our hearts and lay them at His feet?


• well, thats me for now... until next time


• -wb